I took the tree down this week. Another holiday season has come and gone. My second Christmas without Steve. I still cried. I miss him. But this year there was also joy. I was able to sit with our children and enjoy their conversation and laughter. I was able to enjoy our precious grand baby.
There is so much to have gratitude for, a home, roof over our heads, food on the table, everyone being as healthy as possible. I also love having a passel of animals to fuss over and take care of every day. I don't think I will ever get over the pain of losing Steve. But, I do think I am learning how to live with it.
I made several New Year resolutions. I have dropped my long standing social media accounts. Closed and deleted them. I thought doing so would be depressing and I would have some type of withdrawals. But to my surprise and delight...not soo, instead I feel free. Have you ever gone camping, got away from everything and there is a sense of peace from being away from technology? That is what it feels like. It feels like a weight has been lifted. I am shocked. I wasn't expecting that outcome.
This year will be more 5K's, more reading and I have picked up my bow and started practicing target shooting. I had a friend come over and we practiced. I had forgotten how relaxing target shooting can be. I have been practicing every day for about 45 minutes to an hour. I am shooting a youth compound bow, no sights, at 17 yards and I'm already getting a tight pattern. I think before the end of this year, I will also be shooting a crossbow.
My resolutions are to spend more time focusing on things I would like to accomplish in my lifetime. Yes, being good at archery is one of them. But, above all, relationships with the kiddos, family and loved ones, gratitude and love. And maybe indulging in more bacon and an occasional chocolate.